urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt finally we are no one. finally we are no one. 2007-01-23T06:41:57Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:31049 2007-01-23T06:41:57Z 2007-01-23T06:41:57Z so. i am done being a jobless loser once again.<br />working as an assistant @ pure peace salon.<br />it's 4 blocks away from my house, and 20 feet away from one of my favorite mexican restaurants.<br /><br />NEXT WEEK I AM GOING TO FLORIDA. i think.<br />and i am most likely bringing my boyfriend.<br />and this sounds absolutely disgusting, but this kid seriously completes me. <br />im so grateful that i took a chance with him.<br /><br />besides the whole boyfriend thing, i'm extremely lonely in chicago.<br />it seems like months ago i had a whole slew of friends, and never had to worry about not having anything to do.<br />now the only person i hangout with is kenny, and his brothers.<br /><br />i wish i was one of those girls that stayed friends with the girls she grew up with.<br />i wish i felt like people genuinely give a shit about me.<br />my own parents even make excuses now as to why they dont call me back.<br />i get so jealous of girls that have best friends they talk to everyday and hangout with all the time, go on vacations together and gossip about everything and anything. girls that are engaged or married, that have someone who is dedicated and committed to them. girls that have moms that brag about them to their friends and show off pictures. girls that have dads and brothers who are so proud of who she has become and where she is going. <br /><br />i'm going to try my hardest to make the best out of this year. i truly am.<br />when i think of 2006, i think of wasted time and unnecesary pain. <br />2007 will be a year that i start becoming the person i want to be, the person i was meant to be. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:30725 2007-01-12T23:44:12Z 2007-01-12T23:44:12Z i haven't been this excited in years.<br />you'd be surprised, because i'm currently unemployed.. but things seem to be heading in the right direction.<br />i'm absolutely retarded for my boyfriend. he's everything i've wanted, everything i've dreamed about. and he treats me like a princess. no one else i've ever dated can compare to this boy. <br /><br />2007 will consist of:<br /><br />as many jobs i can hold as possible/making as much money as possible.<br />new puppy.<br />moving to a new city.<br />no more douchebag friends.<br />florida trips.<br />colorado trips.<br /><br />.. i'll be adding more to this later.<br /><br />i miss my friends. come visit me, assholes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:30482 2006-12-05T03:08:57Z 2006-12-05T03:08:57Z so earlier i was looking around online @ apartments for rent, and i see this. CLASSIC BABY!<br /><br /><br /><br />$430 Looking for Beryl- Saw Our Loft Wed. at 4pm<br /><br />Reply to: *******@craigslist.org<br />Date: 2006-12-03, 5:44PM CST<br /><br /><br />Beryl- I lost your e-mail address but wanted to let you know we wanted you to move in. Please respond to this to let me know if you are still interested, or give me a call. We really look forward to hearing from you. <br />Moira <br />Apartment- Loft like in Lakeview, with our dog. You parked in the garage.... hope this sounds familiar. And we went to the party where you got punched in the face. Remember now? <br /><br />Belmont at Clark urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:30293 2006-11-24T07:20:12Z 2006-11-24T07:20:12Z i am extremely tired of seeing everyone constantly whoring themselves around and surrounding themselves with bullshit. it's everywhere i go. hold on to the ones you love, stop polluting your body with drugs, be positive and do what's best for you. you could die tomorrow.. are you really making the best of today? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:30206 2006-11-21T08:08:54Z 2006-11-21T08:08:54Z -i started my career today. i love the salon i work at, it's fucking gorgeous. "aqua" is going to consume my life at 45 hours a week and i'm perfectly okay with it.<br /><br />-andy & i are talking again. i spent the night at his house the other night. i have alot to say about all of this but this is not the place for those words. for so many reasons. <br /><br />- i'm going to be alone for the holidays. i'm extremely bummed out about this. i think one or two of my friends should fly up here and rage with me 4 realz.<br /><br />- i might get another dog. now that i'm working long hours, i feel so bad for leaving ellie all home alone. i might make a trip next weekend to the pound and see if they have anything under 20 lbs. preferably something on the "urgent" list. saving a life, keeping ellie entertained, another dog to cuddle with, win/win/win situation.<br /><br />- i can't go to fur free friday because i'm working. maybe it's for the best because i was planning on getting arrested. anyone that is completely clueless as to why, should google "AETA".<br /><br />- my grandma was in a coma for 3 days. they thought her time had come, but miraculously she woke up today and even spoke a few words. i want nothing more to be able to go to florida & take care of her but i know it's best for everyone that i just stay here. i already know what tattoo i'm getting in dedication to her, and its going to be amazing. she's the only grandparent i've ever had and i love her so much. <br /><br />- morrissey is playing tomorrow. guess who has a ticket? everyone BUT me. this is the most unfair thing that has happened all month. everyone knows im practically obsessed with mozzy bear and who can't afford a ticket/has to work? me me me.<br /><br />-my brother might move to illinois to work at the university of chicago's veterinary program.<br /><br />- i have a brother? weird. doesn't feel like it.<br /><br />- i found the most amazing room for rent in a fucking HOUSE downtown, in old town. it's $1,100 a month (the house is well over 2 million) but this house is total mtv cribs so it's worth it. yeah i would have a hard time paying rent at first but with the amount of hours im working i can really afford anything. <br />theres only one guy living there now, and i guess hes super lonely so hes renting out one of the master bedrooms and i would get my own bathroom and living room and parking space. i have an appointment set up to check it out this weekend. hopefully i can get him to lower then price ;)<br /><br />- let's talk about how cool it is the my ears are falling apart. i was at the shop the other day looking for a smaller stud for my monroe piercing, and i saw these 0 gauge plugs that i thought were super cute. i used to have 00'z when i was 18 and havent really had anything big in there since. now, i think small plugs are pretty dumb looking, but there was something special about them and i NEEDED to have them right then & there. so i asked the dude if he thought i could fit them in my ear, he measured them and they had closed up to a 6. he said no. i told him to give me tapers and i stretched my own ears from a 6 to a 0 in one sitting. he said i was so tough that i didnt have to pay for anything. they hurt for one night and then the pain went away. two weeks later, i finally take them out to clean them and theres huge chunks of my EAR coming out of the hole. okay...... anyone know what the hell is going on? this is obviously not good. not good at all, beryl.<br /><br />- i'm running on 3 hours of sleep so im finna go pass out now. luvluv. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:29940 2006-11-13T02:10:21Z 2006-11-13T02:10:21Z i wish i was good enough. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:29549 2006-11-03T20:25:36Z 2006-11-03T20:25:36Z if something good doesn't happen to me within the next few weeks, im peacing the fuck out of here. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:29189 2006-11-02T23:05:52Z 2006-11-02T23:05:52Z Walking off alone with your back to the one you said you loved. <br />Stepping out of skin we grew together it was never ending, but you ended it. <br />Unprepared for the hardened coldness. <br />I could not detect it in your eyes. <br />And every moment that I had to give was dedicated by your side. <br />Of all the nights we held each other dear, never did I dream your grip would end. <br />And your breath against my neck I fear was my only reason for breathing. <br />I will always miss you. <br />According to the facts so casually you lay before me, off your interest died. <br />I'm nodding with your head just to agree and going against what I know in mine. <br />I need a promise not a prediction on when this well resolve. <br />Ok. <br />If it is never then at least I know. <br />I'll go without my dignity and say I will always miss you. <br />I am a skeleton on display.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />btw, the ride or die days are back in full effect. watch out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:28988 2006-10-24T05:06:06Z 2006-10-24T05:06:06Z two things:<br /><br />my car was towed and i am negative 200 dollars in my bank account.<br /><br />i am highly considering moving out of chicago. asap. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:28719 2006-10-13T00:31:37Z 2006-10-13T00:31:37Z - andy is a lying asshole who wasted 8 months of my life. i'm over it.<br /><br />- i only eat once a day because of my new pills. it's weird because as everyone knows, i love food way too much. i feel like i'm getting sick but i kind of dont care because im losing weight. <br /><br />- i changed my mind about the whole hair thing. i want to work at the nicest salon possible, not some cool punk rock salon anymore. all i care about is money so i can get out of this awful country. bring it on cranky, wealthy 50 year old women, let me give you that mid-life crisis haircut you've been waiting for. i have two interviews set up at salons in the goldcoast. <br /><br />- it snowed today.<br /><br />- i'm getting a piercing on monday. <br /><br />- i just got my first credit card ever.<br /><br />- a few nights ago, someone broke into my apartment while i was sleeping and drank a few of my beers and left them by my car. i am extremely creeped out by this, as any other person would be. i think about this atleast five times a day.<br /><br />- i've blacking out pretty much every night, from the combination of not eating enough and over-drinking. minus one point from the beryl team.<br /><br />...... to be continued............. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:28533 2006-10-04T03:36:14Z 2006-10-04T03:36:14Z holy shit, these hormone pills are turning me into a nutcase. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:28166 2006-09-21T05:16:00Z 2006-09-21T05:16:00Z i've been feeling super depressed lately, not sure why because everything seems to be working out for me.<br /><br /><br />i'm done with cosmetology school.<br />i was offered a job in a very nice salon in roscoe village.<br />i am VP: MEMBERSHIP of a chicago animal rights group that has over 250 members<br />i get to work with alderman joe moore with his ban on foie gras.<br />i have a friend coming to visit me tomorrow.<br />the day he leaves, i go to florida for a week.<br />its fall, meaning beautiful weather, hoodie weather, halloween and pumpkin pie.<br /><br /><br /><br />i need to fill a void, but i'm afraid it's about the size of a crater right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:27937 2006-09-11T15:53:51Z 2006-09-11T15:55:13Z i just woke up from a really creepy dream.a zombie dream, almost like a movie, that had a consistent plot and the same characters throughout.<br />the weird part is that i had the same exact dream a few years ago. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:27714 2006-08-19T22:54:54Z 2006-08-19T22:54:54Z mud-wrestling parties on rooftops. chris spillane visiting me this week. discovery of vintage book, tape, record and memorabilia store in my neighborhood. vegan co-ops. new friends. aspen was relaxing. mountain biking with my dad. off-roading in the rockies. unique thrift, my favorite store. brendan mahoney being my best friend in chicago, within a matter of months. adrienne moving to chicago soon. my super clean apartment, courtesy of andy utz. good clean fun sing alongs 24/7. my sailor jerry style hello kitty bag, that just so happens to hold my entire life and then some. <br /><br />i think that's it for now. life has been very positive lately, very fulfilling. i guess i could say i'm kind of happy. i miss alot of people though. adrienne, jamie, andrew, i also really miss taryn alot. everyone should just move here already. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:27418 2006-08-03T17:11:46Z 2006-08-03T17:11:46Z ......... i just won a million dollars.<br />what<br />the <br />fuck urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:27215 2006-08-01T19:42:45Z 2006-08-01T19:42:45Z pitchfork fest was ridiculously awesome.<br />matthew dear dj set was amazing. <br />i drank over 11 beers, that's a record for me ( i hate beer)<br />heat rash, not so cool.<br />i sweat, walked, and danced so much, that i'm really convinced i lost five pounds this weekend.<br />acid trips. <br />lots of parties. lots of dirt. lots of not showering.<br />charging money to get into other peoples parties is my new thing, cha-ching.<br />ex- boyfriend willing to do a complete 180 to get back with me. confused.<br />new friends.<br />adventures with brendan, everyday.<br />somehow driving 300 miles in just 5 days, in a city.<br />homemade pins.<br />new vegan/organic co-op a block away. stoked.<br />lollapalooza this weekend.<br />aspen on the 7th. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:27062 2006-07-28T16:13:28Z 2006-07-28T16:13:28Z <font size="4">someone deleted my myspace account.</font><br />this is pretty interesting to me considering no one knows (or atleast i thought) my password.<br />i need e-mail addys, everyone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:26690 2006-07-26T04:35:35Z 2006-07-26T04:35:35Z stuff:<br /><br />my boyfriend hates me, and i'm not even sure if we're dating anymore. i wouldn't know because he won't ever call me, and he's currently in cincinnati. what's even cooler is that he didn't even call me on our 5months. way rad.<br /><br />more importantly, my job kind of rules. yesterday some really important urkanian dude came in and basically gave us his wallet. he bought bouqets of expensive flowers for us, took everyone @ the salon out for dinner & drinks, gave me 200 dollars just because i ran to the store for him, and got us over 8 bottles of champagne & chocolates. <br /><br />somehow i already spent 100 on drinks, mexican food and gas.<br />the other 100 is going to a small tattoo later this week.<br /><br />i've been drunk every day for 8 days in a row now. i don't even get hangovers anymore. it's true, the cure for a hangover is drinking more. works everytime. <br /><br />pitchfork fest is this weekend. i'm working for matador records during it so i'm getting free tickets and lots of other free crap.<br /><br />umm, i love chicago and i really miss jamie & adrienne & kelly...<br />that's all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:26414 2006-07-22T04:31:58Z 2006-07-22T04:31:58Z QUICK, suggestions please! i have 5 days to decide!<br /><br /><img src="http://www.rsportscars.com/foto/06/sciontc05.jpg"><br />do i sell my 2006 scion tc for this hot piece of metal goodness?<br /><br /><a href="http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/Chevrolet-Nova-1972-Chevy-Nova-Super-Sport-4-SPEED_W0QQitemZ130009358089QQihZ003QQcategoryZ6172QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem">http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/Chevrolet-Nova-1972-Chevy-Nova-Super-Sport-4-SPEED_W0QQitemZ130009358089QQihZ003QQcategoryZ6172QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem</a><br /><br /><br /><br />uhhh orgasm. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:26159 2006-07-21T23:03:09Z 2006-07-21T23:03:09Z can everyone please just stop fucking my friends? thanks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:25668 2006-07-11T20:26:35Z 2006-07-11T20:38:20Z soo, BIG NEWS.<br />i might be on a reality show. it's going to be called "bad girls club" and it's done by the same people who did real world and simple life. they approached me & they're telling me they REALLY want me to do it. i have a phone interview at the end of the week. if i am chosen, i'll be living in LA for 5 months. weird.<br /><br />oh, and the road trip was awesome. we left sunday night and got in on monday. it's so nice to have my car in the city, but i still want an olive green fixed w/ hot pink rims (bike). andrew, i'm looking your way. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:25365 2006-07-02T18:09:52Z 2006-07-02T18:09:52Z benji hughes i meant to write about this awhile ago, but i have found a new artist that produces amazing work that i am genuinely in love with. his name is dan mcarthy, and i found out about him at an art show that we attended last month.<br />we ended up purchasing this print, which will be framed shortly:<br /><img src="http://danmccarthy.org/JPEGS/PRINTS/04.12.17.secondchance.jpg"><br /><br /><br /><br />www.danmcarthy.org urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:25132 2006-07-01T21:52:32Z 2006-07-01T21:52:32Z massive attack - teardrop i started my new job today. i work as an assistant at beauty skool dropout in ukrainian village/wicker park. i basically get hours & get paid to smoke cigarettes, hang out, help out, go online, order in, and walk around passing out fliers while talking on my cell phone . it's pretty much the best job ever.<br /><br />i've decided what tattoos i want in the next few months. kissing skulls w/andy, start of my sleeve (all black grey and aqua), "i'll take my love to the grave" (yes, converge lyrics, shut up) in between my hearts on my hips,and an ellie tattoo on my side.<br />this probably will be somewhat feasible considering the new job, and the fact that my groceries are so inexpensive from eating strictly vegan. oh, i'm also thinking about getting "hail seitan" on the inside of my lip.. but lip tattoos seem kind of pointless. like, how often do people really walk around flipping their lip down? classy broads.<br /><br />ummm, i really want a ghetto blaster boom box that i can fasten to the back of my bike so i can ride around listening to some sweet beats. that would be nice. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:25064 2006-06-30T15:37:18Z 2006-06-30T15:37:18Z cranberries one thing i miss about last summer, is eating cheese fries, while browsing wagon wheel flea market, while listening to the old lady sing patsy cline covers. also, coming home with treasures like old vhs tapes, a baby turle, several foot- long incense, russian cigarettes, or something imported from asia. i don't really think it can get any better than that. i want my life back. one that doesn't involve hair school 9am-9pm almost everyday.<br /><br />so andy and i are flying out to sarasota on the 8th. we'll be there for ten hours or so, just so we can jump in my car and road trip it back to chicago. we have to make it in under 48 hours, so we won't be missing any school. that means no stopping to take pictures, no small detour to the jack daniels distillery, and no staying at cute bed & breakfasts on the way. bummer town. <br />this summer is just one big tease.<br /><br />sooo, i tend to complain. alot. i was always told that people should perfect what they are good at... and for me, that's complaining. <br />i think today i already know what im going to complain about: the fact that i spent over 80 dollars on a pair of tickets to the taking back sunday, angels & airwaves and head automatica show. the fact that andy is out of town, so he can't go anymore, none of my friends are interested in going, and i really don't want to go to another show by myself. don't get me wrong, i love the shit ouf of some power pop, but do i really want to go to the other side of the city, so i can be drunk by myself for 5 hours? bummer town x 2. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ghosthunt:23961 2006-06-14T15:50:27Z 2006-06-14T15:50:27Z this summer has been the worst ever. <br /><br />i'd like to thank everybody for making this possible.<br />i wouldn't be able to do it if it weren't for you.